Sometimes I can become a very needy person.I think this has been one of the biggest strains on a few of my closest friendships. Sometimes when I have been given access to someone's life, I start taking that for granted and acting as though they owe me their time and/or attention. This usually happens sort of subtly over time so instead of recognizing that I'm growing "needy" I gradually get frustrated with the person when they don't meet my expectations, and in most cases I eventually approach them about it as though they are shirking some sort of responsibility.
It's neurotic, really. Like Bill Murray's character in "What About Bob?" Even if it's hilarious on screen, it's not in real life. No one wants to be around needy people. They're exhausting. And that's not the kind of person I want to be for the people I care about.
I'm praying I will let God teach me to ENJOY and SUPPORT people without growing NEEDY toward them. He reminded me today of Philippians 4:19 ~ "And my GOD will supply all your NEEDS according to His riches in glory in Christ Jesus." HE is Who I need to look to when I'm feeling needy.
It's never fun to discover ugly truths about myself, but it's better than going on in oblivion. Now I can do something about it. I'm thankful for that.